Breastfeeding is such a special bonding time.
I really do love being able to nourish my baby and have her so close to me. However there are times when I would give anything for her to take bottle. Sometimes you just need a moment or two to yourself. Unfortunately, when you are exclusively breastfeeding because baby refuses a bottle, alone time is unheard of.
I have tried everything. I have read and tried all of the tips and tricks. I have purchased all of the bottles that swear to be the best for this sort of thing. I have even left her, once, with my mother. Instead of taking a bottle, my sweet love cried the entire time I was gone. It was then that I gave up.
Baby wins and mommy will just sacrifice a little longer.
So many of my friends cannot believe that after 4 months I am still exclusively breastfeeding. One friend told me I’m a great mom, and that she is just an ok one, because there is no way they could give up all of their freedom. I have been praised by so many and also questioned by others, like I’m doing something wrong because she won’t take a bottle.
At first I struggled. There were many tears, hers and mine. And finally after the leaving fiasco and me feeling like the worst mom in the world, I made a choice. One, I would never leave her that long again until she was eating something other than my milk, and two, it wasn’t as bad as it seemed.
I’m a mom. Sacrifice is part of the job. I spent 9 months making sacrifices for her, I even sacrificed while I was trying to conceive her. My life has not been my own since I decided to become pregnant. I can do this. She will only be little for so long and instead of stressing about alone time I am going to enjoy every moment with her. She deserves that. I made a choice to be her mom and that choice involves losing myself for just a little while. Losing myself is a part of me gaining her, loving her, and soaking up every precious moment we have together.